Monday, September 27, 2010
First let me say, for many medication (anti-anxiety, anti-depressants, etc.) is the only responsible option. Hear me say this before you read the rest of this post: Medication may be what you should be doing. But I have a sneaking suspicion that many of us are medicating life, not disorders.
Are you afraid of depression? Are you afraid of anxiety? Are you afraid of fear? If you are, do you know what that makes you? human. I am not being facetious. Perhaps it is better to speak personally. I look back on my life and can remember with pain the difficult times. A time of depression during my freshman year of college. Fears over major life decisions. Intense pain and emotional hurt. And yet all of these things have made me into who I am. What if I didn’t have them? What if instead of dealing with them, instead of seeking the face of God through them, I simply numbed myself towards them? It would have been to my loss not gain.
There is something else. Life is short. We live in a fallen and sinful world that will not last. Soon there will be no more pain and tears. Then eternity. Until then, we have a calling to live through it all. I want it! As crazy as that seems, I want it. I want the depression. I want to have to work through my fears. I want to face my pain head on…and live through it. Like a Man, with courage, with faith in Christ through the valleys. I know the day is coming when there will be no more valley and no more struggle. The battle will be over and we will enjoy the victory. Until then, I am here to fight...not run away.